Summer is almost over and I had a nice summer. I visited Slovenia and Italy in the beginning of the summer which was really nice. Then I went to Halkidiki in Greece and Thassos.
Later on, I went to Ayvalık/Ören in the south of Turkey.
Each vacation felt so good.
I have been on some sort of a cleanse for the past 6 months and I am still clearing out but in general I feel much better than I used to.
I still have ways to go but chatting with my healer today I felt so grateful.
When I visited him 6 months ago I was feeling desperate. During the past 5 years I have undergone surgery 3 times, yet still I was not completely fine.
The last time I felt healthy was in 2013. The summer of 2014; I had my first surgery which I was supposed to heal after. I did not.
After another year of suffering, I had my second surgery in 2015.
I still was not back to my healthy ways, I was just doing better than before.
In 2016, I went to India and spent some time at a Sahaja Yoga Hospital and then went to the Himalayas. It helped.
I was doing better but not like before this whole health issue situation started. Not like back in 2013.
In 2017 my situation deteriorated and by now I was considered someone who is fussy about their health issues, a hypochondriac so I was not sharing my agony much, I was mostly suffering in silence until I passed out in public once. On this day, I was scolded for being a drama queen cause the doctors could not detect anything.
I had trouble breathing all these years, sometimes more severe than other times and my body was producing cysts that I was getting removed via surgery.
Doctors kept telling me it’s all psychological and then after suffering for months, I would end up with surgery because some cyst would block something and they would realize it is something physical that would turn out to be the cause the shortness of breath.
So, in the summer of 2018, I got yet another surgery and this time I was hopeful that it will all come to an end.
For a little bit after surgery I was doing better, then my situation started deteriorating again.
This time I really started to feel desperate.
I had started to develop anxiety, I would have shortness of breath and all the tests came out OK. So, the doctor convinced me that I my situation was stress related.
I knew that my stress level was not so bad that I would be unable to breath but I did not know what to do.
So, I decided to visit Tarık a family friend who is a healer. He comes from a long line of a Sufi family, he started Sahaja Yoga in Turkey back in the day. Although his professional life is completely different, he is an amazing healer.
I told him about my anxiety issues, how I was unable to walk even short distances, how I get shortness of breath. I wanted to get some acupuncture. This was around February 2019.
As soon as he saw me, he looked at the puffiness under my eyes and told me that I have a parasite infection.
I tried to explain that my main problem is breathing and anxiety so it may be psychological according to the doctors. He told me, parasites cause anxiety and depression.
He did apply acupuncture. Then he told me a regimen to clear out the parasites.
At first, I did not grasp the reality nor the severity of my situation.
After all the last doctor that I was seeing had put me through so many tests and this never occurred to him. All he came up with was “stress”
However, I followed Tarık’s regimen religiously. The first week was tough. I thought I was having a heart attack after each day I chewed the pills to kill parasites.
After a few weeks and diets and chewing more parasite medicines and taking probiotics, more than a month went by and I was improving but still sick.
The major change was that he had helped me get rid of all the anti-acid pills and painkillers that I was taking daily. I was up to 10 pills a day when I am in fact against medicine.
I had no choice, to get through the day I was taking all these anti-acids. The doctor had told me that I should never quit them as I had tried before and had gotten worse.
Anyhow, thanks to Tarık, I completely stopped taking them after the first time I saw him.
The parasites initially were not so visible but I could sense the positive change.
After a month and a half, he put me on a pumpkin seeds mixed with home-made yoghurt regimen. No medicine, nothing else.
I don’t know when exactly the little critters became so visible but after a while I became able to see them get released. At first when I started to see them so visibly, I could not believe my eyes, it felt like a horror movie.
I would get really sick, feel like I am dying, when it was them that were dying. So not only were they feeding on me, causing me constant, iron, vitamin D and B12 deficiency but also, they had control over my mood.
In time, I’ve learned that if I feel really sick, a colony is dying and releasing toxins that make me feel sick.
I also learned that they move into the lungs which causes shortness of breath.
There are probably multiple reasons I got infected so terribly. As I checked online, I discovered some of the critters I release are caused by crab meat (sushi) which I love.
Analyzing my situation, I understand that from 2014 on when I first had shortness of breath, I have been subscribed so many anti-acids and after each surgery I used so many antibiotics that my gut flora’s defense mechanism was completely destroyed.
Before the summer of 2014 you could not find an aspirin in my house. However, once it all started doctors started giving me a number of anti-acids, something like Pepto-Bismol that you take in liquid form before the meal, something in the middle of the meal and something after the meal, three times a day. They would tell me, if and when I take all of these I should have no problem.
They did not work, I still had severe shortness of breath and also I was constantly hoping to heal and get rid of them.
Now I am realizing that they killed all the good bacteria that may be left in my gut and prepared a perfectly good environment to expand and make a home for the parasites that I may have gotten from some raw meat or something. There was no defense mechanism. The more anti-acids I took, the better environment was created for the parasites.
Of course, another side effect was the constant tired state. I’ve been lacking energy since 2013. That was the first time I started having a hard time working out like my usual self and got iron deficiency.
Six years is a long time so this low level of energy has become my new normal.
Since, I’m still going through the clear out, I am still always tired. Fighting off invasion in your body is extremely tiring for the internal organs that are working overtime to eliminate the toxins released by the dying parasites.
However I am not taking any medicine except for activated carbon which is not chemical but a natural product that helps toxins be escorted out of the body by acting like a magnet that makes them adhere to itself.
My anxiety situation is much better.
Also, it is good to understand what is happening.
All these years that I was probably infected, I just felt sick and the medicine I took gave me temporary relief while it helped the opposing team.
Now the game has changed. I am finally in the game and have troops in my gut that kill off the invaders.
While dying they make me sick, but it’s OK. All these years that I was being told that it must be psychological I was feeling desperate.
At least now, even though I still sometimes wake up in the middle of the night, out of breath which is terrible, the next day a colony gets released and I know it is the fight that makes me sick and I am winning.
Before, they were constantly winning, making me sick, extending their territory into my organs while weakening my immune system whereby I kept developing cysts after cysts, for which I kept getting surgeries after surgeries.
Anyhow although I am still not completely healed and I still feel weak and tired of the constant fight taking place in my body, I have hope because I am doing way better than before and I am able to understand what is going on, why I am getting sick etc.
I have been using heating pads to get relief over the past few years and I have been carrying it with me everywhere. I was told by people around me that it must be a psychological attachment that I developed with the heating pad.
Yeah right!
Later on, I discovered that parasites cannot stand heat and they suggest saunas and heating lamps etc. as a remedy.
So, I was not delusional, it really does help. It makes them retrieve during the fight with my good guys in my system who try to defend me, which causes a commotion, thus shortness of breath and bloating.
Anyway, I am happy that the mystery to my situation is solved and I am so grateful to my healer Tarık. If it was not for him, I don’t know what would have happened.
It is a little embarrassing what I go through so I was not sure whether I wanted to write about it. Then I decided to share my experience. I have been suffering for years now from a condition that could probably easily be cured if I went on this cleanse years ago.
I cannot believe that this possibility never occurred to any of the internists that I had been visiting all these years and they kept misdiagnosing me and simply labeling it IBS. Irritable Bowel Syndrome.
So, if anyone out there reading this has similar problems that they simply label as stress related, do not take the medicine that suppresses the symptoms but does not cure anything, in fact makes it all worse.
I don’t know when I will be completely healed but not taking any medicines for the past six months is improvement.
I don’t have the kind of anxiety that I had when I began treatment so that is improvement.
My Die Off symptoms are still there but I am hoping that they will eventually all die off and life will become like prior to all these health issues…